jessica

Sitting around like always

2003-07-27T05:34:04Z

Well, today was ok I guess....I woke up around 10:45, called Daniel at like 11:15 and he invited me over...took forever to get dressed, but finally left at 12:00..hung out with him for awhile, Kev was with us too...then I got home at around 3, went to work at 4. Work was ok...I was just ready to get out of there and get some off time cause I just worked like 5 days straight. I'm lucky...I only have to work 2 days next week! Plus I'm going to Six Flags on Tuesday and I'm going to see Poison on Thurs! And Jacob's having a party on Friday. I'm sooo excited about that..finally a decent party to attend. *Next week is gonna kick some major ass. Anyway. After work I went w/ Daniel to his house, hung out for awhile. Kev and Daniel tried to get something going...they wanted to go out to his property in the county, build a fire and drink, but hardly anybody could go...we went anyway. It wasnt too bad. We suck at making fires, however. We wound up just burning a bit of paper....barely got a log to catch. It was nice to spend some time with Daniel (as if I dont spend enough already) and we got to cuddle and hold each other and stuff..and damn I miss him already. He told me tonight that he thought that I was "the best girlfriend ever"...not exactly poetic or anything but I thought it was really sweet. So yeah. I"m going to the mall tomorrow..probably dont need to spend more money but odds are I will. Oh well. I dont really care. I'm just glad I've got a day off! hooray. But that about sums up the day.

Not dead. Just resting my eyes

2003-07-26T07:10:50Z

Well kids.
Look at me.
I decided to start updating my livejournal again, cause I need something to document all this crap before I forget it all (not a stoner...) and wind up not having anything to put in the senior remember-when's.
Quick updates on me: Yeah, I'm officially 17. Still working at Domino's. Broke up with Matt before prom, we're not together anymore, fooled around with some guys before finally settling down and dating Daniel, who's friends with Kevin. He's 16, plays bass in a punk band, and is a great guy. Still working pretty constantly at D-no's. It's great. Went to Punta Cana with Kate and had an awesome time! I'm about to be a senior in HS. That's scary, eh? But other than that it's pretty much business as usual in these parts.

I guess I'll give an update of my day...today was alright. My parents have been out of town for the past 3 days so I've been enjoying that..not having to worry about anything except myself. I cleaned most of the day, cause I didnt even bother for the past 3 days and didnt want to give Mom a heart attack when she came home. Daniel came and saw me on his lunch break, that was incredibly sweet of him. Watched Out Cold, which is an awesome movie. Went to work around 4, which was ok..Im just really tired of it because I've been working every day since Tuesday. Cant wait for Sunday...my off day! yay. After work I went to Daniel's and hung out with Kevin, Jacob, and Nick. We went to McDonald's to get some food and then sat around, basically, but it was just nice to get to see the boy. And that was my day.

Tomorrow I wanna go to Decatur to see if I can get a new cellphone...hopefully mom will take me. The current one sucks soooo much. bleh.

Think I might just list my last few CD purchases...cause I'm bored and needing something to do, really.

Bright Eyes- Fevers and Mirrors
Bright Eyes - Lifted or The Story Is In The Soil, Keep Your Ear to the Ground
Flaming Lips - Transmissions from the Satellite Heart
Alkaline Trio - Good Mourning
Hot Hot Heat - Make Up The Breakdown
and a really good Punk mix cd I got for 8 bucks from Hot Topic. Haha, we saw some kids arguing over a Good Charlotte wristband in there. It was hilarious. Hot topic has really started sucking here lately...I mean..it used to be pretty cool..but JESUS it's terrible now, I could barely stand being in there.

But so far I've had a really good summer..nothing too eventful has happened, but I've had an awesome time. Hard to believe it's almost over...hard to believe i'm about to be a senior! oh my gosh..it's just really surreal. I met a girl who was going to be a freshman tonight..and I was thinking, "geez, it's been a really long time since I was a freshman..." and got a little weirded out. I feel old. hehe.

I'm going to see Poison on thurs! I'm very excited. Poison isnt the greatest band ever but it will be tons of fun. And I will make out during Every Rose Has Its Thorn. Just cause I'm that much of a loser.

Well damn, I'm about to head out. As soon as I finish copying this Sparta cd, I'm going to sleep. G'night.

So..yeah..

2003-03-04T04:55:59Z

I didnt die from precalculus, maybe you just thought I did...
Not a lot went on on the week that I had off...

I found my prom dress...I hung out with my friends a lot, hung out with Matt a lot, worked, and thats about the extent of it. The week off was very nice. I needed it! But it's too much to just spend time updating on. Today was good...got back into new classes: Honors Chem, Advanced Math (precal), band, guitar, and honors english. Its ok. I like them ok..its just i've been out of a lot of them so long it's kind of hard. I have an ions test in chem friday and I dont remember ANY of it...man..that's gonna be fun. heh. I worked tonight, that went well, stayed around for awhile, Jacob is funny as hell. heh.

So now Im gonna fill out a survey cause im bored!

-- BASICS
Name: Jessica Elaine *lastname*

Sex: Female

Age: 16- 17 in 2 days!
Birthday: March 5th, 1986

Siblings: one, Joshua, he's 12

Pets: A cat- Jonas
Height: I dont know? 5'5'?
Hair Color: brown
Eye Color: grey
Eye Color of Choice: I like the ones I've got

Writing Hand: left
Current Residence: Cullman, AL
-- BODY ILLS AND SKILLS
Nervous Habits: I play with my jewlery constantly..you can tell when Im nervous, because I reach up to my collarbone looking for a necklace that isnt there...
Can you roll your tongue?: yep
Can you raise one eyebrow at a time?: heh
Can you blow spit bubbles?: yep! I consider myself talented
Can you cross your eyes?: yes
Tattoos?: Not yet
Piercings and where?: ears
Do you make your bed daily?: hahaha...no
-- CLOTHES
Which shoe goes on first?: Why does that matter?
Speaking of shoes, have you ever thrown one at anyone?: hahah, yeah, that's fun
On the average, how much money do you carry in your purse/wallet?: Maybe 10 bucks? Right now its all in savings though
What jewelry do you wear 24/7?: None, cause I nervously play with my jewlery
Favorite Piece of Clothing: jeans! anything bluejeans!
Pajamas: generally an XXL tshirt or a tanktop and pj pants
-- FOOD
Do you twirl your spaghetti or cut it?: Twirl!
Have you ever eaten Spam?: I'm afraid of it!

Favorite Ice Cream Flavor: chocolate chip cookie dough ALL the way
How many cereals in your cabinet?: 3..heh..my family's indecisive
What's your favorite beverage?: Dr. Pepper
What's your favorite restaurant?: dont have one...anything that surves good Italian!
Do you cook?: A little, but it's not likely to come out looking normal...heh
-- GROOMING
How often do you brush your teeth?: twice a day! like a good little girl
How often do you shower/bathe?: once a day
How long does your shower last?: 15-20 minutes
Hair drying method: air dry overnight or blow dryer
Have you ever colored/highlighted your hair?: Ive had red highlights put in it a few times
Do you paint your nails?: yessiree
-- MANNERS
Do you swear?: More than I should

Do you ever spit?: Definitely not

-- WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE
Animal: cats
Food: Italian!
Month: March, cause that's my birthday...
Holiday? (I'm changing this to Holiday cause favorite day is dumb)- Easter
Cartoon: too many to name just one!
Shoe Brand: whatever's comfy and cute
Subject in school: science
Color: yellow
Sport: football
Tv show: I dont watch enough tv to have a favorite
Favorite Celebs: Female: Kirsten Dunst and Julia Stiles Males: Denzel Washington, Jason Alexander, and a ton of others that I cant remember
Thing to do in Spring: Stay inside...where it's pretty..heh

Thing To Do In The Summer: Stay Inside!
Thing To Do In The Fall: band..and stay inside
Thing To Do In The Winter: stay inside!

In and AROUND

The CD Player: Weezer- Maladroit
Person you talk most on the phone with: Matt
Ever taken a cab?: once.
Do you regularly check yourself out in store windows and mirrors?: Yes, cause I'm lame!
What color is your bedroom?: white
Do you use an alarm clock?: I LOATHE alarm clocks
Window seat or aisle?: window, so i have something to lean on

-- LA LA LAND

What's your sleeping position?: All over...I even wake up upside down sometimes
Even in hot weather do you use a blanket?: 4 of them
Do you snore?: Probably
Do you sleepwalk?: Nope
Do you talk in your sleep?: Yes, all the time
Do you sleep with a stuffed animals?: 2 that my boyfriend got me- a teddy bear and a stuffed cat

How about with the light on?: Nope
Do you fall asleep with the TV or radio on?: TV, cause if i dont i get panic attacks
-- WHICH IS BETTER
Coke or Pepsi?: Neither!
Oranges or apples?: Oranges
One pillow or two?: Four (two behind my head and two behind my back, i sleep on my side)
Deaf or blind?: Blind
Pools or hot tubs?: Pools
Blondes or brunettes?: Dont care
Tall or short?: I dont care..on a guy, taller
TV or radio?: Radio..actually CD player
Beach or pool?: BEACH! Who goes to the pool when you have the whole ocean?
Tic-Tacs or Certs?: Tic tacs!
Snooze button or jump out of bed?: Roll out of bed still half-asleep
Sunrise or Sunset?: Sunrise (normally I'm up from the night before to watch it, not getting up that early!)
Hamburger or Cheeseburger?: Cheeseburger

Morning or night?: Nighttime

Sports or news?: News
Indoors or outdoors?: INDOORS (you can tell I'm a geek, eh?)
Cake or ice cream?: Cant I have both?

Spearmint or Peppermint?: please...neither...ahhhhhh

Bath or shower?: Bath
Book or Movie?: Book
Green or Red apples?: I hate apples

Rain or Snow?: Rain

Nike or Adidas?: I dont care
-- WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU
Took a shower?: About 45 minutes ago
Cried?: Last night..watched Dead Poets Society and cried like a little baby
Talked on the phone?: Today
Read a book?: About a month ago
Punched someone?: Sincerely? Never
-- THE FUTURE
Where do you see yourself in ten years?: Med school, maybe married?
Who are you going to be married to?: I dont know!
How many kids?: maybe 2, but adopted...
Your profession: student, slacker, geek, weezer fan, and a "Customer Service Representative" for Domino's Pizza

This isnt going to be pretty

2003-02-19T04:39:17Z

AHHHHH!

Precal exam tomorrow. *Freaking out*
omg. I am going to bomb it. I figured out today though that I can make a 50 and still have an 80 as a trimester average, so great. But still. I dont need to bomb the exam.

Soooo. Not much happened today, got here early this morning, hung out, and first period took a test- a 100, woo, now i've gotta do the huuuge study guide cause Coach finally figured out he actually needs to give us something other than test grades, haha. Not much has been going on in my other classes, just finishing up stuff....fifth was the big deal. I took a short quiz- pulled my 89 average up to a 90! Woohoo, I have an A! Kickass. I'm happy. After that, reviewed....Im just sooooo afraid of this test. I think if I study a lot tomorrow I'll do alright. I'm just not very good at studying for math...*sigh* I guess I'm prepared as I can be.

After school- work...I was there at 4:30 and then I had to stay until after 9...it was fun...but Im really, really tired. I got "frisky" with Tim in the bathroom (or so he says, haha) and it was just cool cause emory and tim were both there. Yay. But working all week sucks. Im ready for my break!

I've gotta go study some more. Wish me luck kids. If I dont update for awhile, just assume it's been death by way of precalculus.

...

2003-02-18T03:28:15Z

Well. Not much is going on.

Today was good. Nothing much updating about. Passed off my scales in 4th so I dont have to come for the exam. yay.
Worked. Work was fun. Jacob is an awesome manager. Cept Matt put cornmeal down my shirt- it isnt pleasant to have cornmeal in your bra. yeah.
So yeah. Now I'm here. Im tired. I want to talk to Matt, to be with him and see him and I dont know. Im such a nerd for him. But yeah.
Laura told me today that I would make a great band director- Phillip was on the snare today and I said something to him by the way of "could you please stop sucking?"...haha. Im evil.
Is it bad that I think the zoloft commercial with the little dot is cute? haha.
I need to read some more. Yep. Think so.
I want a record player for my birthday. I dont know what I'm gonna do to celebrate but I'll figure something out. 16 days! Woo.
I think Im gonna go download some techno music. I know it's lame. Earlier today I showed off my great lameness by knowing all the words to Grease songs. haha. Anyway.

Im not feeling very social. I dunno. I do feel like being with Matt but he's not around. *sigh* oh well. Yep.

Stuff

2003-02-16T17:51:31Z

Well Im not exactly sure when the last time I updated was...haha....I think it was Wednesday. Anyway, I'll give an update- Thursday I worked at District all morning long...it wasnt that bad, plus we got to have orange rolls for breakfast and do nothing for 3 periods! Then 3rd period, after our shift was over, we watched bands....then 4th did the same....4 periods of band, kids...imagine what that'll do to you. haha. Fifth didnt do much but review for our test. That night we performed...got all 1's and recommended to go to state! Woohoo. State is March 20th. I'm excited. Friday was International Weezer Day! A big group of us had Weezer shirts on, it was fun. I made little heart stickers with "=W="'s on them and gave them out to everyone. It was fun. Took a test in Math- got a 103! Yes! I needed it. After school I went home, baked cookies for matt, then I took a shower and got dressed...we went out to eat at Cracker Barrel and then we went to the Big Band Dance...had a decent time, Matt actually danced a little, it was fun. Afterward, I changed clothes (My feet were *killing* me cause of the shoes I had on) and Matt, Andy, Liz and I all went to see Daredevil. It was pretty good! Overall, a nice Valentine's Day. Matt got me a teddybear and chocolates from Godiva :) ...I was extremely happy! Yesterday didnt do much but sit around and then went to work, it was ok. After work, went and hung out with Matt for a little bit, and now today I'm here. Not planning on doing much, gonna go to my friends' Eagle Scout ceremony, then probably shopping with mom after the race they're watching is over. Then school again...Exams week! Arrrgh. Im nervous about my math mid-term..mostly...the other classes will be easy. I mean, in instrumental tech we only have to play off our scales which I already have memorized. I dont even have an exam in band and we've only got a short test in ceramics on stuff we already know. But Math..I'm SO afraid of the math. I think I'll do alright..but if I do poorly, my trimester grade could be a C! *freaks out* I hope not. I have to work virtually all week next week...little time to study or do ANYTHING..but I guess I'll make it. After that, a week off...yay! And Blast! on the 25th. That's gonna be fun! And then my birthday shortly after...the big 1-7....yep..that's kinda scary. But not a lot else is going on atm. I'll let you know if something's up.

la la la

2003-02-11T14:30:53Z

Gooood morning.

Im skipping first period to catch up on my sleep cause I woke up this morning all nauseous and crap. Yeah. So yeah anyway now Im awake and drinking some Mt. Dew and hanging out...not a lot happened yesterday. First, we talked about the Reagan administration...I hate our history books cause they make the conservatives seem so terrific and the liberals seem so terrible. Pisses me off. Second I threw again...a nice cup..Im gonna have a pretty kickass coffee cup! Hehe. Third we rehearsed for district, which is Thursday....we play at 6. I signed up to work one of the morning shifts- gets me out of classes! Anyway, fourth I did nothing but talk to Chad, Ryan and Nick...then fifth we learned some crap on logarithims....then I went to work after school, which was pretty easy. I think I pissed Ja off a little cause I told her I wanted to stay late...it was fun later on cause Jacob was out of the store half the time and Matt and I just got to hang out and talk for a long time...after work I went over to Matt's house until 10. Then came home, went to bed, etc. So now Im here. I guess I'll update more tonight. Woo. Tonight I dont have to work, so life is good :D.

Two words:

2003-02-10T03:14:50Z

Domino's Pizza. That's where I've been allll damn weekend. Not a lot has happened really...but I suppose I'll elaborate. Friday night I went to work, then after work I ran over to Andy's, I thought we were going to Adam's but turned out Matt was at andy's house...so thats where I went, hehe. We hung out for a little while there waiting on Andrew, then we find out he's already at Adam's house..great..this is at like 10, too. I was planning on going to the lock in at church at like 10:30, but yeah. So anyway, we get on our way and dont get there until 11....then matt's parents call wanting him home! Matt takes me to the lock-in, and he says he'd try to be there...turns out he couldnt come :( that made me sad. We hung out and watched Signs. Stephen and I went and got pizza and nearly scared the whole youth group when we ran up and banged on the window, haha. Then I fell asleep while they were all watching the Bourne Identity. We wake up at 7:30, surprisingly I was actually alert and coherent, hahaha. Then mom and josh and tommy and I all went up to Decatur, and I got some new clothes from the Gap..woohoo. Made it back home just in time for work...it was kinda busy but it was ok. I had fun...after work I went out with matt and rented High Fidelity...an AWESOME movie. Kinda emoish cause it's all like "I miss my exgirlfriend" but yeah. I love the way its almost like a constant monologue. Anyway, today I skipped church, haha I'm bad. Oh well. I worked at Till Death Do Us Part..had plenty of cake and candy and punch..dang...I got home at like 3:50, had to get dressed in a hurry, made it in to work. Emory's a phone chick now, which is great. I'm not the new girl anymore! I stayed late...actually got off about 45 minutes ago. Now...I'm hanging out. Rest is cool..haha. I have to work tomorrow and then I'm off till Saturday! wooo! This week's gonna be fun...Friday is International Wear a Weezer Shirt day...so I"m making it a whole week..I mean, 5 weezer shirts, 5 days in the school week..you get the idea. I even made Weezer valentines. muahaha. Maybe I'm a nerd but that's ok :D. So yeah. Time to go take a shower.

makin' stories

2003-02-06T04:56:24Z

Yeah I know Im bad, havent updated in 3 days! Not a lot happened. Went throught the days pretty regularly, Josh's been sick. Been hanging out at the Bean a lot, that place rocks my socks. And so do Ameretto lattes! So yeah. Today didnt do much....went to school, same old. Not a lot happened. I've been feeling pretty damn rebellious and hyper lately, dunno why. but yeah. Maybe I'll get into some mischief this weekend, haha. I dont know. But other than that..yeah...been hanging out with the drama kids a lot more. Even though I feel like I dont fit in. Oh well, fuck it. I like being around them. Emily's my friend. And so are the rest of them. I dont know why im so unconfortable over this. bleh. I need to forget about things and have some fun! This has been the LONGEST WEEK EVER, I swear. but more tomorrow.

like man, dude, totally awesome

2003-02-03T04:21:02Z

Time Started: 9:51 PM
Name: Jessica Elaine (last name here)
Nickname(s): Jess, Jessie
Zodiac Sign: Pices
Place you were born: Birmingham, AL
Places you've lived: Hoover, Jasper, Gardendale, Madison, Cullman
Age: 16
School: Cullman High School
School Mascot: Bearcats
Grade: 11
GPA: 4.0 (to quote MC Chris- "I've got a grade point average higher than Hendrix on New Year's eve")
Parents: Keith and Pam
Siblings: Joshua
Pets: a cat- Jonas
Height: 5'4', 5'5'?
Weight: like 120
Eye Color: grey
Hair Color/Syle: shoulder length brown that i curl out at the edges
What do you look like? a normal person..? some people say I look like Liv Tyler
What's your personality type?: I dont know. I'm quiet, but opnionated, caring, geeky sometimes
Would you say you're good looking?: I guess
Would you say you're nice?: yes
Funny?: sometimes
Smart?: yeah
What kind of toothpaste do you use?: Crest
What kind of soap do you use?: whatever kind my mom buys
What kind of shampoo/conditioner do you use?: whatever my mom guys
Where do you shop the most?: Old Navy, Jc Penny's, Belk, Gap sometimes, mostly wherever there's a sale
Who's the last person you called?: Matt
Who's the last person who called you?: Matt
What's the last CD you bought?: Ben Kweller - Sha Sha
What CD is in your CD Player right now?: Ben Kweller - Sha Sha (it's a damn good CD!)
What are you good at? dance, playing the xylophone, being a good friend?
Who always seems to be on your mind? Matt (yes im a loser), my friends
Have you kissed anyone in the past 48 hours? yes
Do you drink? maybe sometimes
Do you think drinking's cool?: eh, its fun
Do you smoke?: no
Do you think smoking's cool: not at all
Do you do other drugs?: not really
Do you think other drugs are cool?: ehh
Faves.
Food: Anything ITALIAN!
Icy Cold Beverage: Dr Pepper
Snack: cereal
Ice Cream: chocolate chip cookie dough
Cookie: white chocolate macadamia or thin mints
Soup: tomato, chicken noodle
Sandwich: muffaletta (its an italian sandwich- mustard, ham, salami, corn beef, provolone cheese and olives)
Shoe brand: Candies or Doc Martens or whatever I like
Makeup brand: Clinique or store brand
Store: Old Navy
Outfit: blue jeans and anything on top- probably my green daria jacket and white tanktop
Song: i have a lot- right now its "Domino Effect" by Ozma
Singer: Ben Kweller, Elvis Costello, Rivers Cuomo
Band: Weezer, Ozma, The Flaming Lips
CD: the Blue album (weezer) or Sha Sha (Ben Kweller)
Person: uhh. Props to my homie, Jesus.
Actor: Jason Lee? I dont know
TV Show: Futurama, the Simpsons, Sealab 2021, the Brak Show, Home Movies, 3-South, Clone High (I'm a cartoon whore), Trading Spaces
Episode of the Simpsons: the one where Homer gets perscription pot
Book: "Choke"- Chuck Palahniuk or "Fight Club" or "The Virgin Suicides"
Author: Chuck Palahniuk
Subject in school: science or band
Subject out of school: dance
President: wtf? who has a favorite president?
Senator: wtf? i dont even know who my senators are
Family Member: my cat
Car: BMW z4 (wish I had one :( :( :( ) but my car's pretty cool- Dodge Stratus
Vacation destination: the BEACH! or Europe- which is where I'm going this summer :D
Season: Winter
Who is the:
Cutest: Matt, but andrew's a pretty shnexy boy
Smartest: Matt
Funniest: Sam
Weirdest: Kevin
Quietest: probably Brent
Oldest: Sam? I'm not sure
Youngest: Kevin
Jockish: I dont hang around with jocks
Preppiest: Kate
Most Different: Emily
Who's the most likely to be a millionaire?: Matt or Sam
Who's the most likely to be on Who Wants To Marry A Millionaire? Kate
Who's the Artist?: Sam or Kevin
Who's the best leader? Kate
Geek?: Andy (I <3 you)
Who's got the best legs?: wtf?
Who's got the best smile?: Matt? or Kate, i think its the danceline smile
Who's your best friend(s)?: Kate
Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend: yes

Now for everyone's favorite! The crush part!
Do you have a crush?: uhh, my boyfriend?
Who?: Matt
Do they like you: I should hope?
Where do you know them from?: he's my boyfriend?
What do you like about them?: everything
Do you think they're hot?: yes
Would you go out with them?: I am?
Girls Only! On Guys:
Boxers or Briefs?: boxers
Hats or no? toboggans are muchos sexy. and fedoras
Does size really matter? I dont know
Should guys have piercings? only if they can pull them off
If so, where?: eyebrows or lips *swoon*
Tattoos?: if they can pull them off
What do you look for in a guy?: intelligent, caring, romantic, funny, into the same stuff I am, trustworthy, nice eyes are a major plus :)
What do you NOT look for in a guy?: annoying, loud, self-centered, not willing to listen, not willing to talk, a jock
What first attracts you to guys: their eyes and sense of humor and interests
Do looks matter?: sometimes
The Future Questions:
Do you want to go to college? yes
If so, where? probably UAB
What do you want to be when you grow up? psychiatrist
Where do you want to live when you grow up? I dont know. A big city
Do you want to get married?: yeah
If so, to whom?: uh, wtf? I dont know yet
Do you want to have kids?: Not have, adopt
How many?: one or two
What will their names be?: Isaac, Jonathan, Laurel, Rose, Iris, Rosalyn, Elizabeth
The Hard Questions:
If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?: my insecurity around people
If you could change one thing about your life, what would it be?: my insecurity around people
Do you get along with your parents?: most of the time
Why/Why not?: cause they're cool
Do you get along with your siblings?: yeah
Do you wish you lived alone?: occaisionally
Time Finished: 10:18 PM

Killing 20 minutes. I dont feel like updating so I stuck this in here instead. I think I'm getting sick. blehhhh. Later.

and now its time for something different

2003-01-30T04:36:55Z

La la la. Today was ok. So was yesterday. I didnt do much yesterday, good thing is is that I DID get Brittni to work for me Saturday so I can go to all-county! Awesome ! Yes, I am excited. I'm that much of a band geek ;). But yeah. Nothing really happened yesterday, heh. This morning I stayed home and slept for a bit cause I realized- I can actually skip school now, and get away with it, haha. I was gonna stay home all day but mom came home so I feigned sick, and she let me stay until 3rd period- I didnt really need to miss band anyway, cause I'm trying to get points for my letter and I need perfect attendance for that. Anyway, passed off some music today, and had my ASS KICKED by a precal test. Like, seriously kicked and owned. It was really hard. After school I hung around, and talked with Emory and Tim. They're always fun, hehe. Then I went to BAM with Ed for a bit and had an italian cream soda and looked at mangas for a bit. Went to handbells at 5:30, we learned some new stuff, then went to youth..it was fun. Matt showed up while we were watching American Idol, heh. I miss him a lot already. I'm such a loser for him, its sad. But anyway. I've felt kinda distanced from everybody lately and I dont know what it is. Nothing much is different from my senior guy friends, but people like Kevin, Nick, Ed, Andy, Emily...not to mention Sam. He's been acting really weird lately. I dont know. Have I changed? Have they changed? Do they just not wanna talk to me? bleh. I hate dealing with friends. Sometimes I barely wanna deal with people at all, and sometimes all I want is to be with them. I wish I could make up my damn mind. Oh well. Sorry for the bitchiness lately, but I guess that's how I feel. Anyway. Yeah. I'll update more as time goes on, but not much is happening right now. Later!

The music is for you, raf ;)

Giving 'em something to talk about.

2003-01-28T04:24:35Z

Watching Taildaters..fun. Today was boring. I didnt get a lot of sleep...barely drug myself out of bed on time. Oh well. it was worth it to get to see Der Dieb and the Bebop Cola episode of Sealab :D. Anyway, first period we watched a movie, which was good cause I got to chill and not worry about paying attention, lol. Second I glazed a lot of stuff..I think it frustrated Mr. C. oh well. I've wanted to be more creative in that class than I have had a chance to...but hopefully the sculpture project will turn out. Anyway, third we rehearsed and fourth I did my math hw..lol...I'm understanding my math class a little bit more now. After school, rested then went to work at 5. It was decent. I like working with Jacob a lot. I had a good time cause Matt was there too, except I let him walk out the door with my keys! I had to wait for mom to bring me my keys when I got off work. Oh well. I'm really, really upset cause I cant go to all-county band because of work. It's pissing me off...I wanted to go so badly, plus I've been practicing for a couple of months and I paid to go. It's really upsetting me. bleh. Oh well. At least I get to go out with Matt on Friday...*tries to think positively* I hope I feel better soon. I've been kinda feeling "ehh-ish" lately and I dont like it. Oh well. Not much else to say, I guess.

everybody's workin for the weekend

2003-01-27T04:41:37Z

Which is exactly what I did. I worked last night, then went to BAM with Matt...ran into a lot of people we knew, had a good time. This morning I went to church....we played...we nearly fell apart on a couple of instances! But I think we did an ok job. I would've done better had we had more practice, and had I not had to play 3 bells at once. Oh well. After that, hang around at home for a bit, take a nap, read some of Dune...head off to work at about 4:30. It was busy, but managable. I had fun! It's fun to work with cool people. Maybe its cause I'm new, but I feel kind of in place already. So after work, Matt and I hang around for a little bit, and now I'm here. Gotta go to school tomorrow, which sucks. oh well. Then work. But that wont be bad. So yeah....that's about it. My weekend was ok. Later kids!

lovesong @ 2003-01-26T13:25:00

2003-01-26T19:25:44Z

!*:.:*:. Which Jellicle cat are you? .:*:.:*!
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I'm such a nerd. heh.

I'm tired. bleh.

Later kids.

I dont seem obvious....do I?

2003-01-25T06:11:08Z

Yeah. Today was alright. Yesterday was a snow day so today felt like a Monday..guess its good cause now I"ve got the weekend off. Yep. So I get up this morning, head off to school...it's COLD here. The county schools got out. Bunch of pansies. heh. Anyway, hang out before school with some people...first period we talk about Nixon, we're about to start watching "All The President's Men" which I think will be pretty good. Second, I got my Weezer plaque back, finished my bowl, glazed my box, woo. Third we practiced and fourth period I passed off and then sat around and talked. Fifth was math...very very very very very very very confusing. Words cannot describe. So after school, I decide I'm going to the dance anyway. I tell Mom this, we go, buy shoes, buy some jewlery, I wear the dress I've got...I also got some new shoes with big heels..woo. lol. So I go home, shower, get dressed...I think I looked pretty damn good :)..I leave at around 7:55 to go to Cracker Barrel, I meet Sarah, Brian, Kevin, Jennifer, Lance and Joan all up there, we eat and have a good time. I felt a little awkward, considering I wasnt really initially invited and I didnt have a date...but it was ok. So afterward, we head to the dance, which was fun..except I missed Matt a lot. I realized that I really do love him because he DOESNT wanna do things like go to the dance, he wants to do things that are cool, unique, and fun. Not just generic dances. I like that a lot. But it was fun. I left around 11:30 and now here I am....I dunno, I've felt a little awkward and out of place lately. I think I just need a little time to myself. I've gotta work tomorrow though, and Sunday. PLEASE DONT ORDER PIZZA SUNDAY. I think i'm going to kill myself. heh. But yeah. I think a little time to myself will be in order, I'll feel better then. I guess I"ll hang out at the house tomorrow or something. Anyway, I'll update then. Later kids.

Snow days rock my socks

2003-01-23T17:39:01Z

Woo...yesterday was kinda boring. Get up, go to school, take a history test that I wasnt really prepared for but took it anyway...afterward we talked about the Nixon administration...its cool, because it's fun to hear Coach's opinions on the government. hehe. After that, I go to ceramics and finish my bowl for my fountain...its gonna be cool! I think I'm going to glaze it "Sea Mist" which is a really pretty color. I finished up glazing my little Weezer plaque (chartreuse, hehe...it's a great color) anyway...third period we work on our music, which is sounding better. Fourth I finish up March Gradioso, and I was going to pass it off today. In Math we did a lot of confusing stuff which sucked cause I had a headache. After school..I hung out with Matt, picked up a pizza (woo) and then went to handbells. We learned a new song that we play on Sunday...she's got me playing 3 bells again but it's fairly easy. We also watched a video of a really kickass bells group..the Raleigh Ringers? Anyway, they played Sweet Home Alabama and Pinball Wizard on bells which was AWESOME. After that, go to youth, we talk about God's unconditional love, which is cool. And pornstars coming to Christ. lol. Matt shows up after awhile, and we watch American Idol..which was great. lol. I go to Matt's for a little bit....we play Thief...I get home and the parents are sort of mad at me cause I didnt call. I wonder how mad they'd be if they knew I didnt charge my phone last night like they told me to ;) oh well. I had a little "situation" with Sam but I dont really wanna talk about it. I'll just say things are worked now.

So yeah, I get up this morning and mom says SCHOOL'S CLOSED! Wooooooo snow days ROCK. So yeah, I got up at 10, watched the price is right, and have been chilling (LOL OMGZ PUN) on the internet ever since. Apparently my cat enjoys the snow (this being the first snow he's ever seen!), Josh said he was out playing in it. Pity I missed it :( oh well....now I've gotta clean my room, go into work at 4:30. Fun fun. More update later tonight after I get off work. Woo! Snow days..rock.

There can be only one!

2003-01-21T21:58:16Z

Update before work...I go in today too.. I dont think it's really gonna be busy...hey, I COULD be at KC Chen's...getting yelled at and talked down to! But anyway. Today I was bad, skipped first and second period to stay home and sleep :D...I didnt mind! I head into school about time for band, which was fine...I got a lot of practice in today though. Good stuff. anyway. There's a nasty illness going around school..I think it's the flu too..bleh. The flu, mono and strep throat are all going around...I dont need ANY of those! I've got a headache already..dont wanna worsen it! Oh well. Gotta get ready for work. See ya later!

Patrolling from a safe distance

2003-01-21T05:08:38Z

Well. Time for an update kiddos...not much happened yesterday and today...Sunday morning I get up and go to church, the sermon was ok except it was "Sanctity of Life Sunday"which meant a sermon on abortion...bleh..it frustrated both me and matt. Afterward, I got girlscout cookies, hung out with Matt for a bit, then went home, took a nap, went in to D-no's at 4 and watched the training vids. They were BORING. Very. They sucked a lot. hehe. But that was ok. After Matt got off work we went out to Andy's and played Unreal Championship, which was fun. Today I get up, and lay around for a bit, then go with mom to walmart to get khakis for work. Afterward, we go shopping for a Key Club/Prom dress...it was so much fun, and I tried on a prom dress that was absolutely GORGEOUS but didnt fit well enough :(. Oh well. Mom and I are going down to David's Bridal next weekend to shop, though. After that, I go home, get dressed for work and go in to train...it was very confusing. There are a lot of codes to remember, and a lot of things to do. There's a lot of responsibility involved and that kind of makes me nervous, but I'm sure I'll get used to it...anyway, Jacob sends me home at 7, I call Matt and we hang out for about 2 hours..I've had a really good weekend. I think Domino's is going to be fun. I've just gotta get used to it first. Now I'm just kinda hanging out, looking at prom dresses online..it's fun. I wanna look like a princess for the prom! I'm excited :) anyway, school tomorrow and I'm tired so I'm gonna head off. Later!

lovesong @ 2003-01-18T23:58:00

2003-01-19T05:58:59Z

what color chucks are you?
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Wtf? I guess so. I like anyway. hehe.

I do believe I've gone right through that looking glass!

2003-01-19T05:56:38Z

Well. Today was kind of boring. Get up sort of early, sit around on the net for a couple of hours, go to Tim's at around 12....turns out no one is there except Adam and Tim, which was fine. I was welcome. lol. Matt shows up around 2, we attempt to play Magic but wind up watching the Disney channel. haha. I leave at 4ish, they go to work, I sit at home, order a pizza, pick it up around 6:30 and harass the people at Domino's for a few minutes since I am officially employed there now, haha. After that, I pick up my paycheck at KC Chen's and stay and talk to Allen for a few minutes. I was ALMOST sad for just a minute. Almost. hahaha. Afterward, sat at home for about 2 hours and downloaded some music...Matt calls at 9 saying they're all at Tim's and he wants me to come over...I go over there, and hang out, Emory, Wayne, Tim, Wes, Adam and Matt are all there...and I am the only girl once again. I'm used to it though, I think. I'm trying to spend more time with my senior friends because I'm sort of coming to realize that they're not going to be around much longer. I'm really going to miss them when they're gone...But anyway, so now I'm here, happy cause I got to spend time with Matt, tired, watching Freaks and Geeks now and realizing how much this show really really kicked my ass. I think I broke my toe. Toes + Doorframe= PAIN. Yep. Church in the morning so I think I'm going to bed, kids! Goodnight, sweet dreams, adieu adieu adieu.

Conjunction junction, what's your function?

2003-01-18T05:29:35Z

Wooo, I DID have a good time tonight! Called Kate, we decided to go see a movie at 7. So, I get dressed, and go to Buenavista with mom and eat dinner. Good stuff. After that, leave, meet at the theater, turns out Nick, DeeAnn and Elizabeth are there, which was cool with me. I enjoyed the movie...Just Married gets 4 stars from me (out of 5, dork)! I think the last star was because Ashton Kutcher's in it *melts* but oh well. It was a really sweet movie and funny though. Kate and I were really hyper and having a good time, and then Emory called. They were out at Andy's so of course we followed and went up there. We ate pizza and played Halo and I cuddled with Matt, which was nice. I am so unbelievably happy that I am back with him! So so happy. Annnnnd I dont have to go to work at KC Chen's tomorrow! YES! I hope I can spend more time with him tomorrow. Things are going really well right now kids, in the relationship department, now I've just gotta patch a few things up. I hope that goes well. Yes.

But anyway, bed now kids. I'm tired! Goodnight

Groovin'

2003-01-17T23:06:01Z

Yeah. Gettin' down with some funk music. Aww yes.

I'm gonna have fun tonight, dammit.

Friday nights rock my socks.
Update later....

Time for a turnaround

2003-01-17T02:03:18Z

Well, we didnt do much at school today cause of the threat of snow. Got there this morning and talked to Sam cause the whole group was kinda broken up talking to their girlfriends, and Ed was gone. Anyway, it's still taking me a bit to get over Sam...but I'll be ok. It seems like he's reluctant to talk to me. That worries me some :( Anyway, went to first period and all we did was read the chapter. It was kind of boring. Bleh. Then we talked about the Darwin Awards...I was kinda cracking up at the guy who had his foot torn off! heh. After that, went to 2nd period where we discussed the snow, and I worked on my bowl for my fountain. Then I glazed my Weezer plaque "chartreuse"...I couldnt find a blue album color :( Oh well. After that, third period and band, we had Tim's mom as a sub....the percussion basically goofed off though, which sort of pissed me off..I mean we need to play our music, not freestyle on the damn gong. Oh well. Fourth all I did was play Egyptian Ratscrew with Robbie, Danny and Chad...it was GREAT. I dont think I've EVER, EVER heard that much profanity in one card game! Fifth math continued to kick my ass, but no h/w, yay! After school I hung around until 3:45ish, then went home. Took my shirt by KC Chen's and told her I wouldnt be coming in any more. Yay...heh..then I hung around for a bit, Matt came and got me, and we went and ate New China at his grandma's house. It was fun...we watched a bit of Guys and Dolls too, cause I had never seen it. I declard that it would be cooler if everybody just broke into song and dance at random intervals. So now I'm hanging around on the net, putting off cleaning my room, maybe gonna play a little "Card Captor Sakura 2 Fighting Game". But anyway. Things are great. We might get out for snow tomorrow...but I doubt it. I wouldnt mind though. I'm anxious for the weekend so I can hang out with my friends, see my boyfriend, and get this training at D-no's done. Until later...

Going through the entrance door makes me gother than you

2003-01-16T04:27:58Z

Today was awesome. This week has turned out to be good. Definitely. This morning, get up, mom and dad arent home so Josh and I have to get ready by ourselves. We were fine, of course, and mom called like 10 times to make sure she was ok. Today was the first day at school Matt and I were "officially" back together. I hope we can go to Key Club together. Anyway. First period we took a test, was easy, then we talked about the late 60's-early 70's. Some guy asked if Bob Dylan "just wrote songs about smoking pot" and I wanted to strangle him. Arrrgh. This is probably the most interesting time period though, IMHO. After that, went to ceramics, my Weezer plaque fired out very well and I'm going to glaze it the color of the blue album. Yes, kickass. Now I'm making a pretty fountain. Third period we go to band and we record all our music- Mr. T has several fits at us for not staying together on Green Bushes. After that, sat around in instrumental tech, got a good bit of practice in though. Fifth I went to math and it kicked my ass. But then again, math is hard. Kate got mad cause I didnt tell her about Matt and I, but I hadnt seen her all day. Oh well. I came home, got dressed in a hurry, then went and picked up josh, brought him home, left for my interview. I was nervous, but Tim, Adam, Andrew and Matt were all there for moral support. Aww yeah. Yeah, I forgot to mention that I GOT THE JOB. YES. *does a happy dance* NO MORE SLINGING CHINESE FOOD. YESSS. So anyway, after that, went to handbells and youth, Matt showed up, we had a good time. Afterward, went to Walmart with Matt for a little bit, then came home. Now I'm loitering on the comp and I need to go to bed. Think that's what I'll do. Adieu!

lovesong @ 2003-01-14T22:22:00

2003-01-15T04:22:46Z

Things are right with the world now.

Back with Matt.
yeah yeah I know.

Things are right.

Life is good otherwise. Good but confusing.

You know how they say in fight club, I think I hit absolute bottom.

Or maybe I"m a chicken.

It's more emo to type like this! hahahaha.

I've got an interview at domino's tomorrow. I'm nervous. I want OUT Of the hellhole that is KC Chen's. I want this job so very very very badly. I dont think anybody can comprehend it..honestly. YOU ALL NEED TO WORK FOR THESE PEOPLE AND SEE HOW IT FEELS, K?

Yep. But otherwise. Life is good. yep :)